much much more drama...

anyone who read this post..don't give such a negative remarks upon me..i'm soooo not sure what happening rite now..ok here we go...

i have so many best friends..and another friend of  mine just make a clear confession a couple of minute ago..and i call him as N.. N says he likes me..ohhhhh noooo..i cant accept it..ok just chill out..i'm so okay with it..i mean seriously. i'm so open minded..but to give a feedback about this kind relationship doesn't make any sense bcz i dont have any feeling towards him..i'm so sorry N..it doesn't work so far..i tried but   its not worth it.

well now i know, must be a sign from God..maybe Y will feel the same thing as i did based on N case..so just need to shut up..don't hoping for Y..just live my own life..now i get the point. i'm not going to be so melancholic, i'm happy now, blessed to have both of them in my life.. ;)..well cheerio. 

Tear us apart

i saw u at the first time,
looking at you as the finest person i've ever met,
looking at you as the humble person i became,
we started to become a friend,
i count on u when i needed 'people' most at my hardest time.

i look into ur eyes,
i know the joy; i know the sadness,
its drew on ur face,
it is a beautiful day to know that u r happy,
happy to see ur sweetheart everyday,
i'm sharing the happiness while my heart struggling to bear the pain.

u've been in my situation,
knowing ur love happy with someone else,
i told u to live ur life and so am i,
i'm happy that u notice me; u saw me when i was invisible whereas other people don't,
i will not ask more cz u're there when i need u,
in the name of friendship i will never ever sacrifice this relationship.

lots of love

today i believe gonna be my last moment between me and my friends since we r on the last semester..well i'm gonna share my sad love story  through this blog..i know Y (not a real name) for 3 years..well i be his best friends..he told me whom he likes with..and i'm okay with it..but the hard moment that i know he loves someone else..what the most painful things when u knew ur crush falling in love with someone else..this is time i know Zee (not a real name)..Zee is my friend too..nice and polite girl. girl next door i guess. Zee is so pretty however Zee likes Y..and too bad for me Zee takes a very good step by confess to Y in social network. i'm happy cz Y likes Zee too..i'm happy when my bestfriend happy..i always telling a good things about Zee to Y..hoping they can be together..to Y, eventhough y never knew that i really having a deep feeling towards u, but i don't wanna u to know..if u know i hope u also have the same feeling as i am..and i'll wait for that..in the name of ALLAH swt, i cannot promise if i can wait for u or keep this feeling forever bcz both of us have our own partner/soulmate that granted from ALLAH swt..if u r the one for me, it's a gift from HIM..but if not, i hope nothing can tear us apart as BESTFRIEND..

                                                                                                                                      LOTS OF LOVE
                                                                                                                                        -UR FRIEND-

oh my english!!!

english is important..i mean really important.learning english does not make u forget ur root, your first language or native language..it is part of our knowledge..those who stated that english is not important, they are sooo narrow minded..

                  

The Prophet (S.A.W.), says: “It is obligatory for every Muslim to acquire knowledge.      Allah likes those who seek knowledge”.

(Usulul Kafi, p.15)

Imam Ali, (A.S.), says: “Do not feel shy of learning what you do not know”.

(Nahjul Balaghah, p.1113)

why u want to be like others..i bet those who are rejected to learn english, have a poor common in english..i dont care what accent u used as long as u r willing to learn and adapt new changes in ur life..those language belongs to ALLAH SWT not human any knowledge we gain is from ALLAH SWT..people nowadays recognize ENGLISH as a main internatinol language, so u still want to be left behind while others are competing each other..if u want to be succeed YES english is not a priority but just take an example of Korean and Japan..now they are focusing in English. so whats ur excuse? in Malaysia, most chinese and indian are well educate in english language..how about malay?? being lazy and make fun those who trying to learn english..well I'm not saying i'm 100% excellent in english but AT LEAST i'm trying to be better, good and best.

GAZA with Love

Seriously saya dah tak berapa nak ingat berapa kali Gaza dibedil oleh musuh Laknatullah Israel..bukan sekali dua, bukan 4 tahun tapi tak terkira jumlahnya..bukan berates nyawa yang diragut tapi berpuluh ribu agaknya nyawa warga Palestine dicabut direntap bagai binatang. For a few days back, one of my junior organized Gaza program at university. Well mcm biasa ayat2 yang diberi ‘U GUYS NEED TO BOYCOTT MCD,NESTLE..’ saya dengan rela hati stop makan McD..hello a lot of explanation why we need to boycott McD..waktu umat Islam seluruh dunia menghentam McD habis-habisan time tu dia nk buat free burger apa ntah for breakfast menu..ewah2 yang tak boleh pakai punya ramai yang beratur panjang gila babeng pergi beli McD..lebai tak lebai, tudung tak tudung..yang paling saya sedih bila org kata ‘Orang Islam kat Malaysia ni terlalu taksub, kolot, extremist’ pergi jahanam dengan statement anda semua..saudara aku di GAZA di bedil, kanak2 dan wanita di bunuh..INI BUKAN SOAL AGAMA, INI SOAL KEMANUSIAAN..di USA, rakyat2 dia sendiri mula boycott McD..mereka bukan Islam..tp atas dasar KEMANUSIAAN diorg boycott terhadap kekejaman ISRAEL..

APA guna PBB? Menggelar Allahyarham Ghadaffi sebagai ‘TERRORIST’ tp Israel laknatullah punya kerja kau diamkan? Kau gelar ‘HAMAS’ sbg terrorist, tp pembunuhan keluarga Palestine, rakyat biasa, kanak2 yang tidak berdosa kau jadi bisu, kononnya mengangguk segala perbuatan terkutuk ZIONIST..HAMAS mencabar Israel untuk bertarung walaupun senjata mereka ialah pedang vs senjata api..hamas lancarkan roket di tengah padang yang luas..tetapi tentera Israel dengan bacul nya membedil rumah orang biasa sampai hancur mayat mereka dengan alasan pelepasan roket dikesan di sana..Hamas bukan pengecut seperti ISRAEL..pernah berlaku sewaktu kapal mavi marmara yang ditahan (diceritakan kepada saya) seorang tentera Israel mengacukan senapang di kepala seorang lelaki, dan tentera itu berkata ‘SAY, I LOVE ISRAEL’ dengan penuh keberanian lelaki terbabit berkata ‘I LOVE PALESTINE’ dengan harapan biar askar terbabit tarik picu, biar dia mati demi saudara nya di GAZA, biar beliau berada di Jannah..tp bukan itu yg jadi sebaliknya, musuh yang kita hadapi bukanlah sekuat mana pun..pengecut sebenarnya..

Satu yang saya terharu, masa penceramah tu kata ‘anak2 sekalian kamu semua akan sujud di masjidil aqsa’ terus hujan turun time tu..meremang bulu roma..dia kata kamu akan bersolat di sana, dan sekiranya kamu berada di sana, tolong doakan kami..USTAZ insyaALLAH saya akan doakan ustaz/prof dan sahabat2 sekalian..biar apa pun PALESTIN AKAN AMAN KEMBALI..

switch,split personality..

yesterday i went out with my classmates, and for sure we went to watsons to buy somethin' lah..and aisyah gave me a perfume to smell, urghhh it smells like a dead frog..and obviously its a woman perfume..i can't stand with woman's perfume for sure..and suddenly we searching for male perfumes..i think male's perfume way better than female perfume..and suddenly she said 'u are man, not a woman' ...damn haha..
maybe kot..i love to wear man clothes,pants and so on..can get rid of my tomboy-ish personality..